For Hindus - who does Lord Shiva meditate upon?

Maybe the meditating and yoga has brought about some bad things with it. Is this your religion, faith? You need to be protected , and I would start looking for that light and truth that provides it for you.

Seeking something , means something will come and not always good. You need more learning and seeking other avenues of faith and communion with God. Be a seeker , and a truth finder.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.