I read this through twice and I don't understand what your question is. You sound like a jealous, angry, out-of-control person. Man let it go, give her some space, yes you really need to chill.
Go out and work or exercise or volunteer somewhere and do something good for the world. Get your mind off things. When you are ready to go back, you need to be more relaxed and nice around her.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.