OMg you don't have mirrors in your house?!.........ur VERY pretty you won't have any trouble getting the guy you want trust me.
My guess is that puberty is behind your feelings at the moment. Hormones are messing around with your emotions. Now for how you look well you look just great.
In short a normal pubescent teen and quite cute also.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.