Please don't think I am rude for giving you this answer, as it isn't directly the answer you were looking to get. I am not sure if you are thinking about suicide or not, although it says this ISN'T for that reason. I have a feeling that it MAY BE for that reason, so therefor, I feel like I need to give you my answer.
Please, talk to someone - a school nurse, teacher, or counselor, a friends parents, a favorite aunt or uncle, your doctor, someone from your church. I would mention to talk to your parents, but I believe that you think you can't do that. You can, and they would want you to, but you probably don't believe me about that.
So, just please talk to someone and ask them for help. Life is precious, YOU are precious, and neither of them are replaceable. You probably think your life has no value - but to many people, including myself, you are PRICELESS!
Instead of looking for a way to die, please start looking for a way to live. Many people who feel like suicide is the best answer, do not succeed. Some end up worse off, maybe from damage they caused by the attempt.
Some just don't end up killing themselves, and when their life turns around, they are sure glad that they did not succeed. Your life will turn around - but in the meantime, you may need help in controlling your feelings. This is where a professional comes in.
You are sick, and I am not saying that to be mean. You did nothing wrong to get sick, so you should not feel embarrassed or ashamed to talk to someone about it. Maybe it is just too much stress in your life, or maybe it is a chemical imbalance in your system - but either way, it is something that a professional can help you deal with.
You think no one cares about you probably. I care, or I would not have answered your question. I know your life has value, and I want to try to make you realize that it has enough value to keep living.
If you take your life away now, you will never be able to be happy again, and you will never be able to enjoy the future many years you are about to give up. Please, seek help from someone, and learn to live life happily. That will make many more people happy, than if you were to take your life.
You ARE worth it Meridith - there is no doubt in my mind! Good luck my friend!
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.