Okay, im a girl (despite my profile thing) and I have been there. I was a little emo, I used to cut myself. And I really liked this guy, he liked me too, and he found out about my emo side.
Things got super crazy after that. We fought about how I should love myself and he cant be friends with someone who hates themselves. After that huge fight I just pretended that I loved myself and we got close again.
After that we dated for a really short period and it ended terribly. I know how you feel, I fell like my best friend has been snatched away. Hes flirting with other girls, I try to ignore it, I tried to like someone else, but its hard.
This is not the same thing.. but I know how it feels when boys think that they will get in trouble if you hate yourself. They think that its their responsibility if something happens or what youre doing. I hope im making sense?
My only advice, what I have gotten from people, is get over him. And its freaking hard. Its not as easy as it sounds, im sure youve tried yourself.
If he still flirts with you, ask him? Ask him if you can get back together with him. It'll also be better for him because you can help him get through the hard times.
When I tried to get over this guy, it failed, we hardly dated and im still not over him. I think its most depressing because they are more of a friend to you. They make you feel safe, and needed.
And its hard to loose all of that because of a decision you made before. Like being emo or something its like youre not worth anything, like what you are is wrong. Its really hard,im so sorry you have to go through this.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.