If you really have decided to never gamble again, you have nothing to worry about. It's over. If you do gamble again, maybe you should bring less.
That was almost half your paycheck.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.