I am really depressed and I can't afford a psychiatrist. who can I talk to?

Hi First you know that drug addicts only love one thing, that is the drugs. So no wonder you don't feel loved. Next, I don't have enough room to say how bad it is that your dad treats you this way,and got you addicted.

That is literally criminal, for which you could press charges and also sue him for damages. Taylorring.com wmlawyers.com bestlawyers.com sometimes I think parents need suing and stopping. Next, It doesn't surprise me that you are feeling this way now, It is quite common after the death of a parent, mom especially ,that you would be feeling this way.

I say congratualtions for staying clean and dealing with the pain you feel. Your pain is real. It isnt covered up by drugs or sex or other things making you drown out your feelings You are learning that you can live through the worst of feelings and that they gradually abate and that you can feel better.

That is a huge lesson. Good for you. Now, as far as therapists go here are some ideas for you to explore look in the yellow pages, find the local mental health center, call them and ask if their fees are based on income, and then see if you can get an appointment, and ask them for other resources in your area also , if they cannot.

Often womens shelters have counselors that you can talk to for free, just call and ask them also. Call a HOSPICE , tell them your mom died 5 years ago and that you need some therapy, sounseling, and see what they offer or have to say. Call the Health Department in your area, look in the blue pages under state , I think , for it ,and call and ask them for help, let them know about your mom, youre clean, but tempted etc Go to a narcanon meeting and ask for resources Go to this site and download the free manual , eftuniverse.com click on 'get started free' and read the manual, resource/tutorial areas.

Then make a list of everything that has hurt you since birth and apply this method yourself to all of it. It explains everything. THis is the ONLY method that will neutralize pain, trauma and bad memories, messages, anything while you apply it in only a fewminutes.

It is the only therapy I recommend in general, because the rest just stir around in the problems without releaving them, and often make a person re-live them, making them feel worse, then they have to go onto medications and suffer through so called 'therapy'. If that is what you want , then go for it. Or combine it with the method I gave you above.

There are also therapists in that method at eftmastersworldwide.com but most of them charge a fee. I think that there are enough rehab places that if you need some quick advice you could talk to one you like about how to stay away from drugs. Lahacienda .com is recommended by some as being a top notch place Finally, I cant say whether you should strip or poll dance or whatever, but I do know that certain environments encourage drugs, and no real love connections.

I would hope that you keep trying to find a group of people you can relate to that understand you and are still positive. Here are some suggestions I have, and you can find your own. I truly wish the best for you , and know that you are not alone and can make it out, and into the light and people who do know how to love and what love is.

Streetsoccerusa.org startstrongteen.org giverespect.org loveisnotabuse.com drphilfoundation.org oprah.com.

Ok. Sounds like a lot of things are going on and working on you at different levels. There's a lot going on in the present and there are also things from the past that are hurting you now.

I don't know what your situation is with transportation but there are places you can go where you can get counseling to help you find your strengths and analyze your thought processes and decisions - to figure out a way to live the life you want to live. Usually you can get these services for free or at a reduced cost from mental health centers. I would try calling around to some places like that, and see what they suggest.

There are also free groups that offer support like AA or NA or other groups that follow different approaches to recovery if your addictions are unmanageable. In the mean time I would advise you to be strong and put off all the sexual gratification until you can get some of these core issues into focus. If you allow yourself to be used, you will be used - just turn away from that for now.

Try to envision the next step, however small, that will be the right thing to do. Think in terms of what you can control.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.