I feel like I don't love anyone or anything anymore and feel like ending my life?

Ask for State help to get you on your feet. There are many programs you can look into where you'll be able to go to school (financial aid), work-study program and they'll help you for food and rent. You no longer need to take that abuse.

Try college or trade school. You don't need to be a genius or all star athlete to get financial aid. Or join the military.

They'll take care of everything for you if you're willing to serve selflessly. Move into a friend's house, or family member's house. Pay a portion of the rent, so as to not completely impose.

They'll most likely be less judgmental than your mother. Or just live on the streets, if you're into that. You have options.

Don't ignore them.

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