I feel like I'm growing up to become a failure?

Well, before I start I want to commend you for asking, because its a big step and that I wish you the best =D. Your friends and family are trying to be extra supportive because unlike you, they don't think you're a failure, and you're not! Understand that line, YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE!

With that said, I'm not saying you can just slack around and do nothing, you owe it to them, to your mum and dad, and to yourself to do something. Honestly it doesn't matter what, apply for a low wage job, or something simple because it will add up. Also sitting at home won't do a thing, you need to pull yourself up and march to the library, ask the librarian for any and all GED/college books and read them.

You currently don't have the privilege of having a social life, not now and probably not for the next 1-2 years, but after that you will have made it to college, and you will be on your way, you will have friend, and you will get a job, that I am certain of. But to do that YOU have to take it upon yourself to study, eat and sleep, and just KILL yourself working until you're essentially just a corporal waste. Perhaps my description is a tad grim, but you need to work hard, otherwise you won't go anywhere, you NEED to work hard...but I know that you will, and everything for you, and your family/friends is going to be fine =D, So good luck, I wish you and everyone you know the best and get your self to a college =P you can do it!

Give a try at http://www.rwm.org/rwm for programs in your immediate area (you could live at home, commute, take a loan or student-related job to pay for tuition). Continue to study for and pass your GED. Be kind and look for work to help your parents maintain their home.

You'll probably want to help them in their retirement years, and learning a vocation is helpful. You write intelligently, and so maybe "Understanding Yourself," Mark Prophet, "For Couples Only," Shaunti Feldhahn, "Man, Master of His Destiny," Omraam Aivanhov, "Superfreakonomics," Steven Levitt, and "The Great Divorce," C. S.

Lewis, are helpful.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.