Hang in there you have been 'dealt a bad hand' thing will get better shyness is NOT fatal teen is temporary you are sensitive and smart enough to know what you want, it will come.
You might be sick of it, but there's thousands of people the world over in the same manor, it's just a case of getting on with it. You've also got a negative attitude, you won't get anywhere in your life without being a bit positive.
Okay...long question, but I'll answer as best as I can. I'm going to warn you though-you might not like all of it. It will all be true though.
First of all; being shy is NOT a problem, only if you see it as one. Use it to your advantage-a lot of people think of shy people as "mysterious", and leaving a lot to the imagination. Second: Finding work is NOT as difficult as you might think it is, if you are doing it right.
Apply online, go through the newspapers, heck-even go to restaurants and apply there. Fast food-whatever. Eventually, someone WILL hire you.
That will also be a good opportunity to make friends and meet new people. Third: Money IS NOT everything. I know you think it is, and would like to be able to go out and buy all this stuff that all the "cool people" have.
I'll tell you something though: I'm only 23 and it wasn't that long ago that I was in your shoes. My siblings always seemed to have the more expensive things, and it always seemed like I got the short end of the stick. You know what though-not one single person is paying attention to the brand of clothes you are wearing besides you.
Seriously-I can guarantee that nobody else even notices, or pays it a second thought. I have literally been all over the world: Korea, Alaska, Germany, Ireland, Canada, and even spent two years in Iraq. I was making well over $100,000 a year and the unhappiest I have ever been.
Wanna know why? Because all I wanted was to be home and enjoy the little things. It won't be too much longer before you miss these days when things are so "carefree" (even though you don't think they are) and don't have so much responsibilty.
I can promise you this. Right now, it seems like you are in a prison that you can't get out of-and things are never going to change. I can assure you that it will, and all too soon I might add.
If you dont' like the way things are: change them. Do something about it. I did.
I used to be shy too. I joined the military-and it has been the best decision of my life. I have travelled the world, got a GREAT job from the experience, and done things I never thought I would do.
The best piece of advice I can offer you is this: If there is anything in life worth having, it is worth working for. Step out of your comfort zone and become who you want to be, instead of hating who you are. You'll thank me for this later.
Your life DOES suck, I agree with you. Your family cannot make up a decent system and your brother is manipulative and reaps all of the benefits. Not to mention YOU are way too shy to get up off your a** and do something useful in life.
Sounds terrible right? Sounds like you are going through the deepest and crappiest ring of hell right? Well, I don't want to burst your bubble of insecurity, but you aren't even close.
You are going through a minor rough patch, and you still have a roof over your head. This is your chance to do something ground breaking in your life. You think all these rich famous people all had it easy?
Because some of them had to sleep on the streets with nothing but determination and the hope that they will be successful. You need to isolate your priorities and do something about this rather than whine and whine and whine. Shyness is uncomfortable, I agree with you.
But it is a minor defect. You should think about where your life is going, and then walk up to your employer and give them a speech about how your going to do them good. Drop out of school if it's slowing you down, and give YOUR money back to your parents, and tell them they shouldn't spoil your brother to death.
Actions speak louder than words, and nobody is going to help you BUT you. This might sound harsh, but if you actually get up from your pc (which is a blessing btw), and do something about your constantly declining life, you won't see the day where you regret everything.
Living in a poor neighborhood isn't that bad, unless you have annoying neighbors. You'll get used to the crime there. Just ensure that you have a cell phone nearby all the times in case of riff-raff.
Being poor is fine; it's in the eye of the beholder. I was living in poverty a few years ago and I didn't even know it was poverty. I've moved over 23 times and it seems I never stand still.
Being poor is fine when you can meditate and smile. Nobody would miss me except my parents and sister if I dropped off the face of the Earth too. I think that's normal for most people.
Just focus on the light rather than the darkness. For me, the darkness greets me in the morning, but it never takes me anymore. Being 17, you probably won't have that for much longer because of companionship from the opposite sex, but if you do, don't let it take you.
Force yourself to smile for at least 30 seconds every morning. Focus on the light and the light will be in you. I agree that Christians are hypocrites because they cling to yang and reject the yin.It would be wise to not go to church, but to read the Gospel on your own instead for spiritual fulfillment.
Read the Gospels repeatedly because there's power in them. Study the meanings of the words from Strong's Exhaustive Concordance and Dictionary and don't be quick to take other people's interpretations. Meditate on verses as you go for a walk and whatnot.
Your own interpretations will come to you.
Haha its ok I am the same poor, shy, but I don't go to church because I don't believe in god. You think you have it bad theres people in worst situation then you in other countries thats why I don't believe. Yes its hard to get a job in this crappy economy but I try to overcome my shyness.
Try to stop thinking negative. The way you think strongly influences the way you feel. Take control of your thoughts.
Stop being a perfectionist. Relax.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.