I think the best bet is to go to your doctor and get an enema, basically they just put water into your butt and the feces disolves in the water, then you push the water out don't try to do it yourself, go tell your parents, it's embarassing, but like you said yourself "ima die of how much it hurts.
Steven this is going to sound gross but I have had to do this too you need to get and enema some throw away latex or other disposable gloves some apple juice and some stool softener .. Use the apple juice and the stool softener to help give you the urge to go while at the same time using the enema take the glove and literally but gently use your fingers to dig it out ,,piece by piece if needed I know its gross and its horrible but you will get through this ..
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