First of all OMG Take it slow, process slow Tomorrow when you go to school just stop and pause . When yo you stop and pause know you don't need to try to be someone you really don't want to be. Be confident , hold you head up high.
Stop drinking and smoking and please, please, please don't do anything crazy with those pressuring boys, Mark my words. If you continue doing dumb things like that you will literally want to slash yourself after all that comes out and everyone will turn their back on you. Take a deep breat and say "Tomorrow is a new day, I will not let into peer pressure because I am the boss of me, I take charge of my life, not some stupid boys , not anybody , I am me and I want to be happy so I will stop all this crazy drama or else will face ugly consequences.
Aww, I'm sorry you're feeling like this. I know how much is sucks to be 13 and feel like you're alone. It's quite possible that you have clinical depression and it would help to see a therapist.
If this seems like something you want to do, a school counselor could help you find one. In the meantime, a good way to make yourself feel better is to find one thing you really love and spend a lot of time doing it. Art, writing, running, a job- those kinds of things are all good.
Another thing that can help you is just talking to new people. Having a nice conversation with another person is underrated. If you ever want to commit suicide, it's important to know that it's worth living.
Look up the number of your local suicide hotline. I know it's hard, but just hang in there bb <3 Feel free to contact me if you ever need to talk.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.