Youre going to get the usual answers saying hang tight everythings going to be alright , but honestly I don't know what else to tell you , youre thirteen and quite far from the age where youre able to do what you want and how you want it done. But what I can suggest to you is don't quit looking for a friend who you like , and remember this , what you need right now is not to like them , you need someone who can understand your problems and help you out with them . And you do need someone to talk to and you wouldnt be wasting their time or be spoilt , you have no idea about how many people talk to others to keep calm and assist with sorting each others problems .
Next please do not worry about your mother , be the loving person that you are and don't ever drift away from that no matter what the right guy will come into your life , and you will know when he is the one. Don't do cutting , not just because its bad , but if you cut yourself now then the guy who couldve been your possible partner or your best friend would walk right past you because of that , don't lose those kinds of oppertunities , trust me cutting yourself just makes it harder to make friends and thats not what you want to happen. I also understand what it feels like when nobodys there for you during these situations , if you ever need somebody to talk to then I will be here.
If you want to make contact with me then just drop a comment on this answer and tell me how I should contact you. Be safe and don't do anything thats going to mess up your life.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.