I know exactly how you feel! I'm 16 & feel the same way about harry styles as you for zayn & I'm pretty sure there's plenty of girls who feel the same way about them. Since we don't know them "in real life" I think we all fall in love with this fantasy that we create & the person we make them to be in our minds.
Its so emotional to go through this, as silly as it sounds its true! I feel hopeless & sad because I wish I knew him personally & it feels like I do know him because of all the interviews I've seen! It sucks so bad because it's what I want the most, to at least meet him.
I dropped out too at 16 & don't go out much either, so don't feel alone (I'm going back to school though), what I did to kind of get my mind off of my obsession was cry my eyes out lol for probably a week but it helped me feel better! Then try to listen to different music & discover new bands. Do diy projects or find a hobby trust me it'll help a lot.
But you'll never stop loving him & don't listen to the other people because it is 100% possible to fall In love with a celeb. They probably never experienced it this much & they judge because they aren't in our shoes.. & people tend not to take it seriously because he's part of one direction. One day you'll look back & laugh I know I will as much as it hurts me to think of it like that I had to face it that it's true.
I know I'll never have a chance maybe a .01% <3 enough to keep me going ;) hope all goes well & goodluck! Hope I helped & thank you so much for writing this now I know for sure that others know what I'm going through or have gone through :) AND NEVER EVER GIVE UP ON MEETING THEM BECAUSE IT'S POSSIBLE YOU JUST HAVE TO TRY<3.
I'm not sure it's a bad thing you love Zayn but not to be judgmental, you have issues. If you've cried over it, that's a bit much. He's gone from one direction anyways.
I don't think you need help or anything! That's a bit crazy.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.