Jordan, there is a definite connection between your emotional state and your health. And, your thoughts very much affect your emotions. There is a true saying in the medical profession.
"Stress kills". Please, Jordan, try to move on with your life. I promise you, you will have many girl friends in your life before you marry Mrs. Right-For-You.
Bad thoughts can lead to bad actions which can affect your health.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.