Low self esteem? just an honest opinion pls (boys)?

I have looked at your photo and in my opinion, you are good looking. I do not know you and I have nothing to gain by lying to you. From the way you write I would say you are intelligent.

You said you wanted to make money so that you can help people. This is kind hearted. These are good characteristics to find in people.

Given what you have been through, you could have turned into a mean, aggressive, violent person. When we have doubts about ourselves, it is natural to compare ourselves to others. I wouldn't mind betting that even confident people do this to some degree.

The problem is, we are always feeling we don't quite match up. Do you know though, those people you look at have doubts about themselves even if they are buried deep and they don't reveal them. You said you ask girls out and they reject you.

People are attracted to confident people. Confident not arrogant. It's possible that the girls you have asked out have noticed you are not all that confident so they say no.

I don't know what your interests are but perhaps you could consider joining a club of some sort. You would meet a lot of people. That in itself would give you confidence but it may also give you the chance to makes friends first with girls and when they get to know you more, you could ask them out.

Some how you just need to believe in your self more. Whether that be by joining a group, making new friends, or therapy. Either way, you can do it and enjoy life not waste it.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.