I think you're going through this stage. It's normal esp. If you don't make something of it.
Though think more positive. You have the power whether you'll enjoy life to the fullest or stay depressed and worry about dying one day. You have lotsa challenges ahead perhaps 1000 times worse than your current dillema.
This one doesn't even add up to a can of beans in front of those. But when you grow up it'll be as easy as you take it. Stick to positive thoughts, everything will be much easier that way.
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I learned a long time ago not to waste today, worrying about tomorrow. Every day you do that, you lose a day you will never get back. Everyone dies, no one lives forever.....so make the best of each day you have.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.