This is your ex-boyfriend. You need to tell him that your actions aren't his concern and you would appreciate if he would stop phoning/texting you. I'm sorry your relationship ended.
You already know the answer isn't to start smoking. I hope you won't smoke again. There isn't a cure for feeling hurt when a relationship that was important to you comes to a close.
In time you will feel better. There is nothing that makes you feel good like helping someone in need. Can you volunteer somewhere in your community like serving meals at a homeless shelter, helping at a local hospital or nursing home?
If you like animals, animal shelters are always looking for help taking care of the dogs and cats. The year my best friend moved away I volunteered once a week at our local hospital. It was great.
Every week I looked forward to the day I was scheduled to go to the hospital.
For god's sake girl tell him. All this stupid can't tell, please tell, bad choices crap and it makes it sound like you were selling secrets to the Russians. You keep making it sound bigger than it is.
He'll laugh in your face and say, "Is THAT all?" You got suspended, you learned your lesson, you'll stop being a dumba$$ and life will go on. Move on.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.