My head is completely messed up and im worried my family will hate me forever. What should I do?

Oh please. You consented to the penetration and then something happened you didn't like while he was in there. You may not like it, but it isn't rape.

I believe by modern standards of rape, you might have a case if you told him to come out and he didn't, but the fact that he came while he was allowed in there is not relevant. Why? That was always a possibility and never totally under his control and you both knew that.

Indeed, the process of hasty withdrawl might have caused him to climax and you might be in the same situation... Or maybe you did NOT know that, in which case you do now: Men do not have good control over erections, climaxing, etc. They can generally steer their penises to where they might get stimulated, but as to how they will react when stimulated, how fast they will react, etc - not so much. And they don't necessarily get a lot of time between the certain knowledge that they will climax and the event itself, typically milliseconds to a small number of seconds. This is why no doctor will ever Ever EVER sanction the "pull out" method.

It's not a method. It's lunacy.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.