People think you are creepy, Jacob because you are creepy. What you are describing is illegal, it's obsession,it's stalking, it's creepy. It's not love.
You love the idea you have of her in your head, that's not the real her. You don't love her. Besides if you try to marry this singer you cannot marry your imaginary fiancee of over eight years in Viet Nam.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.