Should I honor this agreement with my wife even if I hate it? I have a checkered past and am not so great at this domestic thing?

You should be asking yourself - Can I live with an abuser - is it worth losing my sellf - is it worth living In Misery and fear only then will you have the real answer.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.