Sleep paralysis do I have disorder or is is normal?

Yes, a thousand times, for more than 25 years. It is absolutely normal to have it, and you can never die as someone said. SP is the same as dreaming.

Your body is sleeping but your mind got conscious in the middle of a dream. For those who think they woke up and couldn't move, they are wrong, they didn't wake up. Only your mind is awaken in a SP.

You can do wonderful things in this state, so let it go, experience it, it is a gift!

Yeah many times and the last one was an hour ago. I hate it because now I have trouble sleeping at night.

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