Sometimes suicide seems likely: How would one come out of the depressing trap of solipsism but still be intellectually honest?

NO is not your fault. YES it is rape. You probably can't prove it physically now..idk maybe....but, if you want to pursue getting him charges it's your right.

If you choose not to...then please get therapy all help you can hugs.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.