No, actually I've done that too. I've never truly had a bf either. I know personally that when a guy talks to me I feel important because there's a chance he may be interested- or I want him to be.
So to answer your question, its not weird.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.