What could be wrong with me? I get such bad anxiety at time and start to become paranoid, and I feel like i've gotten worse.?

Try finding hobbies to do when you are alone. You will enjoy doing the hobby and it will distract you from thinking of being alone. I suggest drawing, knitting, blogging, cooking, etc. Watching TV Shows and reading books that you like will keep you content too.

Hope this helps!

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