I'm guessing that it probably means you've been reading his cipher without permission. You shouldn't do that...not because it contains some magical secrets, but simply because it's private. Chances are you won't be able to decipher it on your own anyway...but that's not the point.
When you're old enough, you can apply for the degrees just like your old man did and then you'll get to experience the ritual just like him. And if you're serious about it, I know he'll be very proud of you. But until then, you should be patient and wait.
But if you want to join Demolay, just ask him!
I am a Freemason Garden City Lodge, Newtonville, MA Mt. Lebanon Lodge, Boston, MA.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.