The reason the .45 was developed was to deal with the Thuggee cult who'd wrap themselves up tightly in bandages and then dope themselves up on drugs (usually marijuana. ) They needed something that would STOP a drugged person, not simply kill him eventually. If you really have an attacker coming at you, you are best served by considering the likelihood that someone who does decide to be violent (towards anyone) would be on drugs.
PCP anyone? .
People are tough. Unless you knock them flat on their back, they can kill you before they die. If I were carrying a gun again, I would want a .45 or even a .50 cal weapon.
Dirty Harry was right. But it is not even close to being light or easy to shoot. You want a toy - you may make someone mad.1l5l0.
In my parents' nursery, the running joke was "I want a shrub that grows 6 feet tall the first year and then stops growing, never needs watering, and blooms year 'round"similarly, you want a gun that is tiny, light, doesn't kick, holds all the ammunition you'll ever need, and hits everything you shoot it at. Such a gun does not exist. You need to choose what is most important to you: you can have small and light, or high capacity and accurate.
You can have light, or no kick. Personally, I like the M1911A1 in .45 ACP, but it is big and heavy, and has a maximum load of 10 rounds without special magazines.My wife has a .38 special I have not yet gotten the chance to shoot, and my mother in law gave me a .32 automatic that I have also never fired. Both are small and light, but have limited capacity.
You should go to a gun shop that has a firing range, and test pistols to find one you like. A firearm is much more personal than you think.
Light weight and low-recoil are mutually exclusive -- it's the weight of the gun that counteracts recoil. So -- you can have a lightweight Ruger LCP, but it'll "bark" in your hand. Or -- you can have a heavier Ruger SP-101 loaded with .38 Special and hardly notice the recoil.
Way I look at it is that a self-defence pistol is not a range pistol -- you're not going to be shooting it a lot. If you ever do need to use it in a self-defence situation, the recoil will be the least of your worries! Next, "smallest" and "holds max rounds" are also mutually exclusive.
More rounds means bigger handle (pistol) or cylinder (revolver). You can ease this a little by using smaller caliber weapons, but then you lose out on the self-defence capability. Finally, "self defence" and "accurate (as in long-range accurate)" are also mutually exclusive.
If it's close range, pretty much anything is accurate enough. If it's long range, then you should be running instead of shooting. I think the "best" self-defence weapon is a Ruger SP-101.
A little heavy, but small enough and you can load .357's for self-defence (or use .38 Special for range shooting). Pleasant to shoot with .38 Special ... or a man-stopper with .357's. Only 5 shots, though.
If you want small and light-weight, then you can look at the Ruger LCP or Keltec P3AT (both .380). Both Ruger and KelTec offer 9mm models only a touch larger than their .380's. Basically, same size bullet, but larger cartridge so more powder so more power.
Note that you really don't need a thumb safety with most Double Action pistols or revolvers. The long or heavy trigger pull negates the need for a safety -- you're not going to pull the trigger by accident. If you're looking for economy as well, then the Bersa line of pistols are well-appreciated.
I like the 9mm and .45 models, but people rave about their .380's.
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