What kind of impression am I giving others when I tell them I was blacklisted from any indoctrination?

Oh, PLEASE! Are you EVER going to get of this sorry horse! It is Long Dead by now.

Again: Catholics don't have 'indoctrination centers'. You can't be 'blacklisted' from attending RCIA classes. If for some reason you were escorted from the church premises, it must be because you were behaving inappropriately.

Go do another parish where they don't know your family if you really want education in Catholicism. But I call POE!

I think if you go visit a nice mental hospital you'll find you're not blacklisted from there. Quite the opposite. They'll be happy to see you.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.