What should I do about my self esteem issue? Its ruining my life!?

I am so sorry for your grief here. First of all your husband should be grateful to you for giving him a child. Without a doubt that in and of itself should be respectable.

The fact that he can't see that right off the bat tells me he's a moron. Second, he sounds like he's being emotionally abusive towards you. If you can't respect you, then it tells me he does not love you, or worse he doesn't know how to love you.

Finally, you need to start thinking of yourself and the baby. To me it sounds like you are a nice, attractive person inside and out, and you have to think in those terms. Let me suggest that you try and get him into some counseling regarding his abusive attitude.

It seems to me and I could be wrong, that the baby is the issue in his mind. And he has to grow up and accept the fact that the child is his too; and the two of you need each other and the baby needs both of you. If he can't handle that there's something seriously wrong with him and you need to get away from him.

Emotional abusers usually can devolve into physical abusers and you don't need that. If he has hit you, get out now and take the child with you. Find a way to move on and divorce him.

If you think there's a chance and you can get him to fix his issues, then please do if you love him. If not, then nothing's worth this kind of pain. Not all men are like him.

He's obviously got something going on inside his head that's ruining your marriage and your life. Address it soonest before he hurts you and the child and further.

A lot of times after a woman has a child you have post par-tum blues (unsure of that spelling) - but what you need to do for yourself, is put your makeup and fix up your hair - get out of those sweats and go on walks with your baby. Being outside and getting fresh air and exercise will help. Don't take anything your husband tell's you to heart - he's a man - they don't go through all the changes a woman does having a baby and after the baby is here our body goes through changes and don't get upset at this - but we are more emotional due to these changes.

Let what your husband roll off you and pretend you don't hear it. But, start fixing yourself up for you! Good luck.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.