Why am I feeling all these weird emotions.. its not me anymore. about two months ago my?

It sounds like you have a tough time being alone with yourself.

Now is the time to focus on other things in your life (school, career, travel...etc) When you least expect it love will appear again in your life. Don't try to force things let them happen.

Your future is ahead of you, not behind you.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.