Keep going to some kind of counselling - if you are doing - if not - GO. I suspect you know that women are anything BUT weak (let's face it, they have to face the pains of childbirth....) and because you know YOU have a weakness, you feel angered by/envious of this. However - at least you have the good sense to try and do something about your problem - a lot of guys wouldn't have the courage to do that.
Hopefully someone will be able to help you.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.