Nooooo, not normal. Oh my, two months in we should still be on our best behavior. 56 years old and single tells us a lot.
I'm a 58 year old widow, and men that age should have no trouble finding a partner, women outliving men and all that. You're better off alone. Nobody needs that.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.