Am I being crazy/ delusional?

Hi. I am in severe incurable pain every minute of every day and I have been since a car accident almost 9 years ago. I have attempted suicide because of the pain, being stuck in a wheelchair and being housebound.

No one can understand unremitting severe pain unless they've experienced it. The pain is awful but so are the painkillers. They've affected my heart and breathing and I've been hospitalised with pneumonia and heart problems.

I know that suicide affects a person's loved ones and I've had the heartbreak of losing friends to suicide. However, I have no family, I'm bedridden and very little quality of life. For me suicide is a serious option right now, society may disapprove but I'm the one suffering.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.