You answerd it yourself. Your just curious. It's actually surprising how many girls find other girls attractive and get curious.. Not gay unless you stay with only girls.
If you want to do this and men too then you are bi-sexual.
You've already answered your question. You're attracted and even fantasize about your same-sex bestfriend. You're gay.
Gay/homosexual = sexually attracted to individuals of the same genders bisexual = sexually attracted to both genders heterosexual = sexually attracted to the opposite sex.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.