You really should have sought God instead. Every year, thousands of people receive a witness of truth from the Holy Ghost and join my unpopular church because of it. Your inability or unwillingness to give it a fair chance has nothing to do with its veracity, as you well ought to know.
If you had really given us a fair chance, you would have learned that many of your feelings coincide with teachings of my church: Hell is never forever; it exists only to purify us of our sins. Thereafter, Jesus redeems us and presents us spotless before his father, after which we are rewarded according to our works. The punishment fits the crime, and God's love, mercy, justice, and goodness are all intact -- as they cannot be in any other Christian church.
Go to judaismvschristianity.com and read as you feel led to. There are many chapters and topics, all of which are very likely to interest you as well as clear up much confusion about what you've been taught. I also have made a list of excellent youtube videos, each 10 min.
Or less in duration that will also help you. You can see this list on the top blog post at www.toenquireiswise.blogspot.com. You are right to have doubts after being taught so many contradictory things.
Food for thought: The RCC is Mystery Babylon, the mother of harlots. Who do you think the harlots are? Yah bless you.
You will find the answer if you seek it.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.