I had a budgie for almost 3 years. And came home on nov 17 of this year to find he fell in the fishbowl and drown. That horrible moment I came home to.
I havent cried that much since I was a kid. I totally feel your pain. I was careless and yes you were too.
What I did to help was I immediately found another hand fed tame bird. Its not the same but it definately helps. I keep the cage closed now.
I feel your devestation.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.