Awww hon :( all you can do is learn from this experience, try to put it behind you, and never forget how much you deserve. Don't ever feel like you owe anything to anyone-- especially a sexual favor. The only person you owe anything to is yourself.
You were intoxicated (ugh that legal weed stuff is so bad too- it seriously distorts your perception). You weren't in the right state of mind so you really can't blame yourself. Don't feel dumb, gross, or anything like that.
The only thing you agreed to was to hang out, you didn't expect things to go farther than that. Everyone makes bad decisions sometimes (especially when they're under the influence or horny-- or both). You might want to stay away from this guy since it sounds like he's always just wanted your body :/ it may have been your first time, but it wasn't very sexually appealing I assume.
Thus, think of it only as a learning experience. Things can only go up from here. Your next experience will be much better if you're honest with yourself and partner.
Take your time and only go farther if you feel comfortable and ready. Take care dear.
Aww hunny im sorry. He really used you. You don't deserve someone who wants you anytime they're horny.
This has happened to me, luckily I lost my virginity to someone I loved. I guess this is a very sad lesson most people shouldn't have to learn :( Leave him, and forget about him. But never forget how he took advantage because then, in the future you will be more responsible.
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