Depersonalization/derealizatio... panic attacks and constant anxiety from a bad drug trip?

I have tons of trip stories. You probably smoked a synthetic version of weed like Spice or K-2. Ok, once I took 150 Datura Stramonium seeds and tripped for two whole days, I saw bugs everywhere (even inside my body), I could barely speak, I was a zombie, I hallucinated voices and even whole scenes which never happened, I had some spiritual experiences though (so it was worth it).

I've done datura many times since, not recommended but I do it. Another time I did these two types of weird pill (I forget the chemical names but I nicknamed them Mirth and Cyclone). Both made me sooooo tired that I couldn't even keep my eyes open for two minutes (luckily it was an easy day at school).

I slept at least twenty minutes of deep sleep in each class; the high itself was terrifying also: I felt like I would have to go to the hospital, I couldn't stand up. Luckily I made it out though. Haven't done those pills since.

Another time I took 12 25mg Benadryl (DPH) pills and went on a marching band tour. For about thirty minutes I could not stop my excited, nervous, laughing and the kid next to me was scared of me because of my incessant laughter and loud meditation noises on the bus. After I could actually speak, I realized that I couldn't remember things from one second to the next.

I had complete and total short term memory loss, I said something to someone and they responded; exactly two seconds later I couldn't even try to remember what they just said and had to ask them again until they realized I was way too high and walked away. I've done it many times. All the above highs were terrifying because they were all nervous highs, exciting and ecstatic but terrifying.

I've done MANY other drugs that are much better but you asked for bad trips so there you go.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.