No I don't cry at night, and I don't plan on doing that in the future. You need to finally find the strength from somewhere to pick yourself up and get out of whatever dysfunctional relationship you are in. If it is not making you feel good, go in a direction that will.
Even if it is only you that is making you feel good. I know it is easier said than done. But at some point you gotta want to get away.
You have to want to experience real love, instead of the love you have made yourself to believe is real. They are not tears of joy so they must be tears of sadness and who wants that.
You don't say much about yourself. Life usually gets better in time if you give it a chance. Life is hard, no one owes you anything and you need to get out and meet people, figure out what you are good at doing and do it.
You have to believe in you and stop caring what other people think about you. Make plans and work on them to accomplish things. You are your best friend so start being nice to yourself.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.