Seems to be in your head, you have problems to pee at all and only when you have your fetish than it's possible. You have to talk to an urologist about your problem, maybe he offers you some pills, so you can frequently go or he tells you that this is a psychological problem and you better see the other doctor soon. Try to drink less now until your problem is solved.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.