Ex-GF advice! Long answers most points! Very long question! No jerks! Need some perspective?

If you love someone let them go. I think she sounds very messed up and you sound like you're looking backwards when you could be moving forwards in your life. Deep down you must know it won't work.

That doesn't mean you don't remember the good times, but for both your sakes it sounds like you should move forwards.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.