You should see a doctor honey - if I had to guess (I'm nowhere near a doctor or any kind of health professional) I'd say you may be experiencing some type of schizophrenia - but as I said this is a pure guess and I could (it's not unknown for me!) be talking total nonsense and it could be a virus giving you fever dreams or something else entirely. Life is precious and all too short you need to look after yourself to give yourself the best chance to enjoy it. The help is there you just need to want it, there's no need to suffer alone so please give yourself a chance and ask for it.
Good luck?
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.