Has anybody here ever been to Tel Aviv or Jerusalem in Israel?

Anyway it seems your heart is trying to tell you something. Besides I am thoroughly convinced that the mere act of having sex with or without any formal ritual , is a marriage. And you have already become mated and share a oneness.

Doing without certain pleasures for a short time can be beneficial towards focusing on another meaningful experience. Enjoy your adventure.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.