Have I ruined my chances?

If he was right there and saw you were drunk and STILL permanently holds it against you then he is not much of a catch in my opinion. I hope you learned something from it though. I would definitely bring it up and say how embarrassed you are every time you think about it, hopefully he will see you have grown up more since then.

Get it out in the open so you can move past it.

Talk to this guy and when you have a chance let him know that you made a big mistake that night and you are sorry. See how he reacts and then you will know if you have a chance with him or not. Don't drink because it is not good for you.

It sounds like you have alcholic tendencies.

I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.