No girl dreams of her "first time" as being raped. You have ruined her, possibly for life. She's probably feeling cheap and dirty because what you did cannot be undone.
Obviously you didn't care how she felt. You just wanted to get your rocks off. Just so you know, having sex or rape is in NO WAY proof of love.
It proves that you are a selfish narcissist.
What you did was wrong, but you already know that; calling you a jerk isn't going to fix the problem. If you realize what you did wrong then tell her that you are sorry. Be specific; just saying I am sorry isn't good enough.
If you don't understand what exactly you did wrong then that is what you need to figure out first. Right now I don't think you need to be as worried about losing her as you do showing her the respect she deserves. Realizing what you did wrong, taking responsibility and accepting the consequences of your actions will make you a better man.
As said before, you don't really want her, you want sex. If you really cared about her, you wouldn't have done that. Try to make it up.
Talk to her and apologize. Say you realized how you really shouldn't have done that and you won't do it again. Take her out to dinner.
Tell her how much you love her. And remember, ALWAYS listen TO the GIRL. Good luck.
Hope this helped.
Communication is the best key to a relationship. Tell her how you feel and will do anything to make up for it. Buy her something sweet (a teddy bear that says I'm sorry).
You need to tell her, you really wanted to but you found she wasn't ready a bit too late, you couldn't control the moment- and now you feel really bad.
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