IF blowing one play in a meaningless scrimmage makes you "sick to your stomach" then perhaps you should find an outlet with a little less stress involved. Perhaps knitting or stamp collecting. Seriously, man up.
You got beat on one play. And if you can't move on, then quit. No point in getting a damn ulcer.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.