You are not an atheist you are just Lazy. Look let's put it all into perspective we are talking about eternity here. You need to adjust your perspective and see that what you feel is God calling you to Him.
As St Augustine said; “You made us for yourself, O Lord, and our hearts are restless until they find their rest in you.” In your heart know the path to take so why don't you take it? Suggest you read “The Return of the Prodigal Son: A Story of Homecoming” by Henri J.
M. Nouwen it was written for you. Have a blessed day.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.