Your story is the mirror image of mine except I am 50 years old and have had this all my life. I lived with my Mom till I was 31 then married a man I shouldn't have to get away from her. Then I spent the rest of my time with him.
I was unable to go anywhere myself. I then found out he molested my daughter and turned him into the police , now he is in for 13 years , but I am alone for the first time in my life. Oh top of all that , I have chronic pain from a fall and arthritis and fibromyalgia.
All 3 physical issues I was told I was making up. Yet I am on 180 mg of morphine a day plus muscle relaxers, etc. I believe what you are saying. I am sure you are miserable.
This is very hard on your self esteem. Who the ++++ would want to sit home all day and get an unlivable income and be paralyzed with fear and depression. Dr's and Social Security are hard hearted and determined NOT to give you anything.
The good news. It saved my life to get a full mental evaluation. It proved that I could not work and that I was really depressed and had severe panic attacks.
I was lucky and the Food Stamp people paid for my evaluation, but no matter what it costs, you must get one. That is the only thing that got me my SSI. I didn't qualify for SSD because I didn't have enough income credits.
Why? Because I couldn't work. SS knows that , but they try to get away without paying you anyway.
I live on $698.00 a month and my 80 year old mother pays my rent because there is no low income housing except in the crack infested apartments. What a shame in this great country we live in. When my Mom dies Ill most likely be homeless and people like us don't live in shelters cause we cant take the axiety of a shelter.
Talk to your Dr. See if you can get on some anxiety medicine. It takes the edge off mine. But, depression medicine doesn't work for me.
I have tried them all. I have so many side effects. You gotta have a trail from your primary care Dr regarding your emotional state.
Also, If you are not , please get into therapy. SS will want to see you are actively seeking help. That therapist can lead you to a person who does mental evaluations.
Sell blood, a kidney or anything you can to get it because that is your proof. Get a good lawyer. Not one of those on TV.
They will take a % of your back pay and its way too much , but what else are you gonna do. You won't win without a good lawyer. You can start the process on your own of filing for disability so that will give you time to get a good lawyer.
Never miss a SS deadline to get your paperwork back in to them. They will deny your case if you do. Even if , like me you had your home foreclosed on and no place to live and that was on your mind instead of filing on time.
They don't care. Good for them cause they don't have to pay you. You have to gather all your strength and all the family support you can to get through this process.
But, you have a good chance of winning. You are young and that is gonna act against you, but if you have enough proof you should be OK. Don't give up.SS wants you to.
That is why they make you fill out so many forms and wait so long. I hope and pray that you get what you need. Fight as hard as you can.
I know how hard it is to live like you are living. I wish you the best. If you have more questions , let me know where I can email you and Ill try to help.
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