Killing yourself is too harsh a punishment for a crime you did NOT commit. You do NOT deserve to die. You are NOT a mass murderer.
You didn't set fire to a crowded orphanage on Christmas Eve. Okay, you have some challenges. Who doesn't?
Please, talk to a trusted ADULT about your problems, and how badly you feel. When you begin to see some POSITIVE changes in your life-----you will be glad you didn't murder an innocent little girl, who was suffering like Hell. I will pray for you.
1. If you have to ask other people, especially on Internet, the answer is always no. 2.
It'll help if you would stop trying too hard at everything. People hate that, and realistically, you can't impress every single person you know. 3.
So what if you have "only" 4 best friends? Doesn't matter how many you have. 4.
Everyone feels insecure from time to time. It's all a phase.
I cant really gove you an answer,but what I can give you is a way to a solution, that is you have to find the anglde that you relate to or peaks your interest. A good paper is one that people get drawn into because it reaches them ln some way.As for me WW11 to me, I think of the holocaust and the effect it had on the survivors, their families and those who stood by and did nothing until it was too late.