My wife has cheated on me, I am still working at it. I am pretty much the same as you, get attention but don't act on it as I love my wife and wouldn't want to lose her. But now I keep thinking maybe I deserve better, but fear I will probably just get cheated on again anyway.
It's really hard, My heart says one thing and my head another. I like to beleive that she wouldn't do it again, but I only have one life and am scared that if she does it again that I will be wasting a part of my life believing in her, But then again I married her so she has got to be worth fighting for. You have to decide if its worth it.
Good luck!
Its hard to get over being cheated on and the deeper the relationship goes, the more trust is being incrusted. A beginning of relationship mistake happens. If you want to keep up with him, which sounds like a good idea, you'l need to forgive him for good and let the young naive man you knew four years ago behind and be with the one who obviously was faithful for four big years.
If you're having a very hard time, before doing any drastic decision you should onsult a psychologist who wil ligten you up regarding your issues with his. A sexologue migt also be good for both of you to consult just to make sure of things. Unless you'd suspect him cheating today, you shouldn't let a little accident ruin this relationship.
We all make mistakes and as long as its not a repeated thing (it wouldve happened already if it was the case), don't be to harsh with the choice.
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